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Have you heard? P. Dempz and I, we're probably getting married really soon. In my dreams that is, you know those things that apparently every person has every night; but for some reason mine are never present in my consciousness. I woke up today thinking about that. Shouldn't we always remember the dream that we had right before waking? I mean I may be naive to psychology but it'd make sense to remember something two seconds after it happens. I guess I'm just thinking about it too much.

It's a usual ramble-y Friday. OMG @ Grey's last night! Izzie is fired?! Really, ALL of the original characters are leaving and it just isn't the same! I don't really know what I'll do. No Addison. No Izzie. No Georgey. No Burke. No Denny. Please... those new Mercy West-ers better not be the central focus. I guess I'll just watch the show for that fellow above with the hair :D

I long to find a picture of him in argyle. Oh, that'd be too good to be true. I searched google and photobucket without any luck. That means I'll need to buy him a plethora of argyle after the wedding ;)

So yesterday I became obsessed with Manchester Orchestra. They're so good. And diverse. All of their songs are about something different, unlike lots of bands. Oh, and Brit's new song "3" is great. Brit, you're catchy. I could listen to it all day errrday. But I suppose that's what I do with every song until it's worn out.

It's evident that my moods come in cycles. When I'm tired and avoid heavy thought all I focus on is media, simple addictions, distractions. When I'm alert and well rested I'm critical and anxious about everything. When I'm overtired I'm confront and question every aspect that I would choose to ignore.

"No one wants to admit we're addicted to music. That's just not possible. No one's addicted to music and television and radio. We just need more of it, more channels, a larger screen, more volume. We can't bear to be without it, but no, nobody's addicted. We could turn it off anytime we wanted."

"You can watch your kids discover everything in the world you've tried to save them from. Drugs, divorce, conformity, disease. All the nice clean books, music, television. Distraction."

Damn Palahniuk, you're head on.