364 days till I'm 18.

...I should live by this

ocassionally, I write

spin me around faster,
tell me there's nothing left to lose
rid me of my senses
give me something I can't choose

match our heart beats to words unspoken
your breath is my attention
your lies will leave me empty in time

no expectations,
no disappointment

"Hemingway has his classic moment in "The Sun Also Rises" when someone asks Mike Campbell how he went bankrupt. All he can say is, "Gradually, then suddenly." That's how depression hits. You wake up one morning, afraid that you're gonna live."